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hai... jus bored la...
was wondering how come no one comes to read this page liao...
too boring le issit?
oh well.. i think i already know the answer... y ask?
haiz....
jus too bored le la...
no one to talk to...
no one to speak to...
no one to crap about...
no one to laugh about...
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the list goes on... now ima jus bored of playing games...
wat can be worse than that?!?!
hai... shld i even be saying these kinda things?
sianz...
eh...
u so long nv talk, u wont sian one arh?
i starting to get sian liao...
ytd slept at 0400 in the morning....
sms oso nv return...
grrr....
hai. u noe who u r then ok le...
i noe tt words in my blog r hard to read, and i dun expect you to even b reading this...
cos i noe tt if u read this...
sure get bored n slp rite at where u r rite now...
in front of the computer...
wat can i do?
lemmi add sth to todae's post alrite?
i hope no one gets offended cos this aint pointed to anybody...
jus hw i feel rite nw bahz...
=))
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Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back when you and daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
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the nite is boring w/o speech...
hahas....
cya peps!
dreaming of you` @
18:01
Sunday, January 07, 2007
diu....
todae started off by leaving home late for sch..
oh well... reached at 0730, but still wasn't late... cos assembly haven even started
=.=
bah... met clara at the foyer, n the whole foyer plus the whole of the staircase in front of the general office was filled with pple as tho it was within a can of sardines..
so squeezy...
lucky for us there was still another entrance to the quadrangle, the huge staircase jus in front of u if u stand where the pe office is on ur left...
not many pple were dere tho...
couldn't find my class... (all hiding at the area beside the former 1t31...)
-.-
bah....
todae shouldn't b v sian, but c my classmates oso dunno wat to say,jus sit down dere n listen to wat they say...
lydat then bcome sian.
dun feel like studying leh...
assembly start at like 0745...
dun ask me y it's like so late, cos i oso dunno...
but tt's the time when the councillors started to walk to the center of the 2nd lvl, facing blk e...
oh well, noticed nr through the slots between pple, but din notice where nd was tho. oh well...
saw mich, but not tricia. bah.
my ht tsl was behind me. so boring de...
y mus she still b my ht!!!!
mr ymw is enough lo! he's one great guy =DD
oh well...
still another year wif tsl as ht.
so boring...
xian zai... li ke... ma shang...
even kenny oso say until she oso "du lan" lor....
so diao diao one...
but well... who the hell care abt tt?
she's like the thorns in the class...
dun even wanna c...
rmb abt:
beneath the beautiful roses is a sea of thornswell, guess she's the not so pleasant but still ok kinda ht bah...
ymw is so much different...
look at him n his smile u cfm wanna luff liao lor... damn funny...
idk y but he realli looks a lil funny when he smile... =/
oh well... saw nr, mich, rach, naomi n tricia outside class... my class is like beside the link staircase of the classes-laboratories. nr class is bside mine...
hahas...
life's gonna b so much more interestin', n don's class is wif the labs....
lols.
well...
it's onli like todae then i noe xuan din get to promote...
but din c her in the ig(s) leh... where she go???
hope she's feelin' alrite, but w/o tsl,
sure better!!!
oh well... bet she's gonna miss sam's huge laughter and oli's "flirt"...
*ahem!!!
(oh well i took a pic of them tog, cos dey sitting rite nxt to one another... but accidentally deleted it. damn it!!!)
bah...n dey din noe it till the flash was out...
me bad la.... din rmb to take w/o the flash.
diu...
well, ground rules in class:
1. no smoking in class (well... this applies onli for sham bah! ...)
2. keep the class key (ok... it means "clean"...)
3. no birthday bash (rejected by douya... cos todae is her bd bash... hahas =D)
4. help one another to do well for "A"s (yeah... gd idea... who wanna help me out???)
5. keep the noise level down (well... ymw wanted this one... so it's here...)
*this is a special request from ymw... guys... pls stop eatting in class... the ants cant get over to the other side now... (pls dun ask me abt this, cos is inside joke for my class =D)
then it's time for bio lecture...
nr was wearing a hairband tt rach gave to her.. oh well... it's realli horn*... =)
sian diao... mhgf (ok this means the "yandao", "cai shen" or "gay"... but i dun wanna say his name =] *this is for everyone's safety, cos i noe u all will say tt he's as mentioned above oso...) did an award presentation...
oh well...
as expected, germ scored a hat-trick, cos of highest in overall results, highest in paper 1 (mcq) n highest in promos...
well... the nxt 2 tt's worthy of mention to mhgf is...
vance n victor...
well, mhgf oso gave a brief description of wat we're gonna go thru in the nxt 9 mths...
so many things inside bio to cover in 9 mths.
sian diao sia!!!
now i got 2hr break. so sian...
*ok i became the key-keeper. nxt time jus pass the key to me after u open the door la... i always inside the class one... diu...
ok.. jus realised nd's class is like on the opposite of my class...
so heartless... tap on my shoulder drop note then run... grrrrr.......
well... tt note was frm justin.
thx maomao =D
wahh.... stuck for words sia...
my 1st meal in sch was vegetarian delight
(idk y, but the liking of eating vd is back lor... jus dun feel like buying frm other stalls...)
back to the pavilion again =/
...
now left 1 hr till my break end...
nr n rach feelin' bored le bahz..
but dey got bio tut class...
no time for poker...
anyway... so much for sitting outside till rach's head fell down n never came up. oh well... mhgf oso dun care. i care for wat?
n derrick's head keep turning to look at me...
i wonder if he's gay man... then in the toilet he say i damn gd wif the gals in india...
where got???who the hell said that?
damnit!oh well... maybe ms curryfingers wanna tell me more abt tt??? =p
welll... nw it's time for gp lecture.
science & technology...
s&t oso can hav so many probs one arh?
mus b finding needles in a haysack bahz...
yj sitting one row above me... nr on my left side row, xy on the other end of the the lt1...
*nr, rach n naomi r inseparable =/ (sort of bahz...)
well... i saw tt on a slide was this:
4% of internet users use internet for 7+hrs a week.
i think i use this amt bahz... =X
it's time to go home le...
but i still cant go..
got odac. grrr.....
oh well...
iz is reservicing, n wont b back till nxt week wed. tt's 10-01-2007...
well... lek took up the job n placed everything into track. then it was time for 30 rnds...
i think i too long nv run liao...
onli did 4 gd ones then do slow ones for another 6..
nearly blackout sias...
christine realli has to noe when to stop sias...
kena heat stroke sias... lucky got wc to take care of problems... i helped too... hahas =DD
ne way... y is liz still so scared of me?
so scared i cant take care of christine?
i medic leh! if i cant... who can?!?!?!*ok. got wc n nic, but nic running still... lucky wc dere... if not i think liz push me away christine cmi liao... sure "gua diao" one...
liz cant even do much la.... like calafair...
damnit sias...
always pushing me away like ima some monster.
i not scary lor... it's what u think wat!
oh well...
in the end oso send to hospital for checkup. she's ok nw =))
din go for post-xp dinner at taka...
so sian... u all oso nv talk to me, still wan me to go b extra...
diu...
accompany nr home, talk crap on the bus, luff at one another's jokes for todae.
lols... din noe tt she bully the teacher one... i wonder if she'll bully mhgf
(i hope he dun c this, cos ima get so fked up =/)
nr took like 42 minsi took 1hr30mins to get home cos a a long 40min walk from lentor ave... if not maybe like 45 mins can reach home if i took 981...
zzz...
oh well... i should stop here...
nitez to u guys.
i shld b aslp nw, but who cares!?!?!?!
jus let me be myself bahz =DD
dreaming of you` @
23:59
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
yeah... you could jus say that ima jus feelin' bored... this kinda life is kinda boring hur? staying at home all day long... hahas....
ytd was kinda nice tho... surprise @ mich hse for pool... hahas... nr is gd. ima kinda sucky at it, but well, i've taken the cue stick for the whole game for >7 times.. oh well, nr says it's >10 for her.. well, we're kinda on the same boat hur? hahas...
ne way, a lil sry to mich for the surprise, maybe wrong interpretation of sms on my part... hahas... ima getting blur... n oh yea... thx for the choc nr =))
well, ima kinda like waiting for my char to heal in maple... side char. the main one still cant fight zombie mush. yucks. so weak!
oh yeah... anyone done their homework yet?
(ooopps...)oh well.. ima add more to this if ath comes up to me...
hahas....
dreaming of you` @
11:26
Saturday, December 30, 2006
zzz...
it's been so long since i've last posted ath here...
i think it's well been archived into blogspot.com ... jus too rarely used.
i miss the:
smack that;
the lessons;
the life;
the lunch;
the pple;
the laughter;
the jokes;
the hearts;
the nights;
...
just so much more.... hahas....
jus realised that i didn't even post when i came back from the nov' xp... hahas... but well.. who cares abt tt? ima heck that for now. jus too bored to care wif it.
oh well.. found myself a v nice fren and sth like a gd pal to talk to... hahas... hope this fren be happy n dun sian diao while talking to me can le...
ima such a boring n *GAY* kid.... hahas..
oh well.. i shld stop here... it's gg daybreak soon. =)
happy looking for pple in the aftnoon for lunch =D
dreaming of you` @
03:42
Saturday, December 23, 2006
i waited at the mrt. as i waited, i wondered what i was waiting for.
it was a little kinda hurting within. i cant seem to know why. i thought i had given up on you... but atlas... i found the answer to it only after a while.
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well, pw was kinda like a grave for me, since i din realli practice, but i hope it'll still b alrite. =p
apart from that, too bad i couldn't go for the class outing. just too obbessed with odac for everything bah...
i think ima just drowning myself in odac and virtual games.
to:
wc: sry abt earlier on... didn't meant to either, guess it was all in the fit of a confused/messed up mind =S
ss: i wonder how've pple been, since iz said ima a loner, n u said u're ok. i dunno abt myself, so hehehehe...
dom: sry lo.... u try so hard but ima still stuck at where i am, not much advancements to my life till now, but i guess i'll jus hav to keep trying bah. getting a lil sick of all the noise n such bah =d
dreaming of you` @
22:54
Friday, November 10, 2006
it's been more than a mth since i last posted. wanted to post earlier this wk, but din have the time to do so.... so yeah... now ima doing it, and maybe for the last time before i go over to m'sia for some mountains...
belumut, stong, ayam, jasah, perdah, brinchang, yong belar, hantu besar, datoki hope we can all finish it tog, and ima a lil sad for minhui, and can lynette pls be more decisive? u're strong but you dun seem to have nuff drive to push through this whole thing. be strong!
anyway... wc, liz n ronald leaving rite? sohai...
wc. laughter, fun, cranky... ima miss so many things.
liz. bth but still ok. dun b so demanding n complain abt everything. it doesn't mean ath even if u're stronger than me in running. ima not gd in tt area, and i noe u are better, sometimes... u jus piss pple off =)
ronald. jus gotta b part of it. no ronald = missing fun... well, so many pple can say this but it comes from ME ok! kekekeke.....
bleh. back to cooling down mode. dun say ath abt this. it's coming back any sec. but the smell is v strong ah! =D
well... even when u're not dere =)
i hope the medic dept can go on well la... only wc, nic, me and dom(partially. sometimes blur abt everything tt's impt)... but well, we're gd in this area but we're jus tt scary n wc has to go. i dunno if i can last, but i hope i can. well, we never know, but YB mite jus by my poison. kekeke...
sadest thing in this xp till now is tt wc has to go on day 4 =X
damnit!bah. my life's fked up. no point trying to control it.
jus trying hard to be myself back again.
silent, sinister and shagged...
dreaming of you` @
21:33
Thursday, November 09, 2006
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bah. this is the 3rd time i've rebooted my pc. freaky sound card i got from sim lim tho. 52 bucks. a steal from creative =D
anyway, had some tough time trying to get it to normal. testing it and all.
but well, now it's ok. i guess it's the CD-rom tt's causing all those reboots. taken it out jus now =D
*ok.... it din reboot anymore... =D
anyway, ima jus happy tt i got a new sound card, just tt the price is a lil steep to me.
a blue note =X
it's quite a substantial sum...
was thinking over too many things. i jus got a new notebook to write things down.
meaningful, thoughtful, and all the things tt matter to me.
well, guess tt's alrdy quite a huge no tho.
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on 1st oct 2006...
went over to big aunt's home to congrat wendy on her full month baby in the afternoon...
the baby was there, but wendy was absent =X
how can the mother b absent? =X
guess she went out to buy some stuff.
the baby was cute. nice to cuddle too =D
btw, took a computer back home to fix from aunt's house oso. uncle told me the computer wouldn't boot. lian told me the hard disk crashed. so i took it all the way home thinking im gonna take like 2/3 days to fix it.
*in the end? nth near hard disk crash. justa v incomplete installation(rather, just upgrading) of the windows. took too long for them tho. guess they din have tt kinda patience =XX
had some refreshments there, then went over to sim lim square arnd 1730.
some of those shops were alrdy closing. met ms rebecca tho. shopping for some computer parts wif her family. chinese hubby n his mum =X
my pri 3 teacher. well, she's gotten a lil more "hock key", but still could recognise her from the 5th lvl.
lols.
din expect i'll meet anyone there, cos i was looking for a cool n quiet spot to scan thru those flyers for a gd n cheap sound card. (finally had time to go =D)
*anyway, forgot to ask her for a form of contact, tho i noe tt i mite not even meet her again in the future =X
well, got a few tho. 2 of creative's r at the same price. one of em was out of stock. the other was well, quite out of stock too. had to run a few shops to get em =X
dinner was up nxt. had a vegetarian one jus opposite the entrance of OG.
well, the food was kinda nice, comparable wif the ones in sch, but not in terms of variety =D
after tt was some shopping wif mum n younger sis at OG n Seiyu. lots of things there, but nth much tt interests me =X
the bags looked nice n trendy, but i didn't hav nuff to go arnd for tt. ima still sticking to my fox bag for now. =S
dreaming of you` @
01:59
Monday, October 02, 2006
