| [ just some thoughts` ] |
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i dunno wat to say.
bio was wrecked.
yandao say paper was meant to be finished by the better pple. i couldn't. t29 couldn't. i dunno how to say. it's easy for yandao la... but we all noe lor... it's like not meant to be finished... even j oso say the only way to get an a for bio is to get 70m, just nice, at best no need to do more than the pre-requisite qns to get 70.
heck. it's tough. but no one said it was easy.
one hella sub, but u still gotta love it.
i wonder if i'll still be here nxt year.
it's so scary =X
fh was doing iz's random physics revision. wasn't that hard afterall...
just that iz's ans love to be on the positive side, esp on the graphs that he draw. taking upwards/downwards to be positive, so as long as it requires only upward thrust or freefall due to gravity. jus realise i had lost some things in physics, but still ok, concepts still strong, pushing and hard. let's wait n c for the radioactivity part. that's the tougher one =))
oh. i had sth to tell u, but i didn't c u. i didn't noe how to start. i'm afraid i'll fall apart. just remember that i'm now in a state of solidão. yes, it's solidão, nth wrong with it.
it's lonely here. it's painful on the inside...
but i'll have to take it that way.
nuits cette fin jamais - just want you to know - backstreet boys
i dunno if i'll ever stop seeking things.
dazing is just my way of looking at things in a broader perspective.
it keeps popping out. i'm being crushed silently. dom doesn't get what's on the inside, but it helps. it really does.
but you had it changed, totally.
it doesn't bode well on me to brood over it, but it's always out of the blue that it comes out, and it just stays there, not going away. i try but i can't get rid of it.
it's there to stay.
i told myself. i wanted it to go, but it didn't. you want me to work towards that, but avoiding it aint. it's just a temporial solution. its by-product will hurt even more...
brushing it aside to cope with other problems, i tend to classify myself.
i'm not here. neither am i there.
it's not like i'm everywhere.
i just wanted to be there.
but it doesn't work out that way.
always.
it's absolute.
i've never thought of it as harmful.
never once.
it was there to guide.
but the light source is gone.
forever?
i hope not.
i'll be waiting.
and waiting..
waiting...
bah. jus some release of thoughts.
it's uptight. i might just test for freefall.
i never know.
the point of breaking.
it's close.
i can feel it.
don't leave me hanging ... on such a breakable thread - my happy ending - anvil lavgine
it's not like it's tough.
it's starting to tingle.
vibrations are felt.
deep down inside, magma flows.
once it does, there's no turning back.
what's done been done.
it cannot be undone.
just like the words that we once said.
just like spilled water.
there's no turning back.
just like a cheese fondue that goes right into the mouth.
it never comes back out.
it's a one way direction thingy...
but communication's a 2 way traffic.
ever realised the expessways?
it's always 2 ways, up/down or left/right.
same with life, but never at the same time.
man was given 2 ears and a mouth.
to listen more and to speak less.
then i wonder why there are computers.
we dont even need to speak or listen.
we just read.
then again, why is there books?
i'm puzzled.
i'm worried.
worried about life.
what's life anyway?
it was in a just do it kinda thing in the past.
now? i have to fight for it.
but what's the meaning or answer to life?
i never knew, i never know, and i thought i'll never know.
you came in.
then it came back once more.
everything.
yes, everything.
if it comes in once more.
i might just snap.
all the different thoughts.
the line of difference...
it wasn't once defined...
it's smudged...
it's fuzzy...
it never was clear...
and it never will be...
for the people thinks so...
but do you?
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dreaming of you` @
22:59
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
