| [ just some thoughts` ] |
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woke up a lil groggy todae.
to go to sch early. wanted to c her so badly =)
the trip to sch was still ok... heard 98.7 play kylie's "cant get you outta my head". yeah. i cant. i tried. dun blame me, dun avoid me, cos she's the one =))
bleh...
not even a glimpse.
i dunno how i'll fare on the chem at 1300 tho. quite confused wif stuff now.
i heard a joke tt had steffi's name in it =X
ok... maybe i shldn't say it here XD
anyway, 0837. sudden gush of pain.
the heart. it skipped a beat for a moment i suppose. then it hurt. it realli hurt.
bah. who's gonna care for me now? her? she doesn't want to do so. she's still seeking him. i dunno.
i seek. i dun stop. cos i know if i stop, i'll break down. i nearly broke down jus now. gg mad soon. snapping. cini saw tt. he told me to get a grip on myself for the chem later. yucks. i tried. it went down a lil.
60mins before the chem, canteen got noisy. mind block all the way. didn't wanna think much about chem jus now. missed her. bah. wishful thoughts. she's never coming back =((
anyway, cini's frens came over to talk n ask him qns. yeah. he HAS frens =)
dun look at cini n think tt this guy's a total freak. eatting, talking, actions. yeah... he's kinda mad, and it takes one to know another. m i tt another?
gimme sth from tt man =D
anyway, chem was a lil like a breeze, tho it had some commas in there though.
lucky no mindblock till 1hr into it. was rushing section c. tough n yucky... stopped at qn 2 part b. how to do the calculations? so freaking fked up.
section a then b. yeah. i did b last, why? cos got more time mah.... then referring back to section c, got one qn abt the same! lols... set the paper till lydat =/
okb announced end of chem n asked teachers to take back paper.
sians...
another bout of slow talking n keeping paper.
xpected to finish at 1600. in the end oso release at 1635. SLOW!!!
sians. miss her =XX
nxt up is maths on wed...
i cant think of myself doing maths. it's starting to get boring...
lost my goal in life?
maybe...
lost the aim of living?
maybe...
lost the thoughts?
maybe...
lost friends?
maybe...
lost my own mind?
maybe...
lost her?
i guess so =X
it wasn't meant to.
thx for the sms tho.
kinda lifted the day up a lil.
miss her =X
well, back to games again?
yeah... i guess so...
i jus realise that the promos is like a week of exams n hols...
yeah... kinda like that...
i like talking to myself...
yeah... the inner self?... like me?
yeah... i think so...
kinda soothes my mind a lil.... but then again sometimes it gets so outta hand that i cant take it anymore and i just blow up...
huh? blow up? u've never done that in front of me before...
nah... i've blown up internally so many times... i guessed u'll break down sooner or later...
yeah.... sooner?.... or later?... NO WAY! i'm you.
yeah... you're me, but i kinda get confused with my life even if i continue going on...
so? tt means you can jus throw me here and leave me to rot on my own? bring me along la!...
i oso dunno... i'm just so confused.... so confused...
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dreaming of you` @
18:06
Monday, September 25, 2006
