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wanted to say sth yesterday. wanted to blog too. but then again there was so much distractions for me to slp. i woke up at 1400, cos i slept at 0600in the morning? XD
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so fun.
'nuits cette fin jamais'
yes., it's 'nuits cette fin jamais'
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cos my nights never end...
bah. how i wish i cld throw yesterday away, cos i wasted more than half the time just staring into nothingness.
was watching tv. be it on or off. i mus've been mad.
i dunno what i've been thinking these few days.
snapping? just one side. the other's flapping in the wind.
the snapping side is me. just me.
the flapping side is oso me, but to those that i really wanna treat well, i show them the flapping side. i dun want them to worry abt me...
i know they care, but it's heartbreaking to know that they feel hurt for me.
it's not like i dun care abt those that i show the snapping side, but they have to get it, some-how-or-rather. yeah. tt's the word XD
alright... back to todae's post XD
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morn was normal, but took my sis's crumpler, cos the fox bag was quite down and out. the btm is breaking apart, and the top zipper was like flapping on it's own world =XX
wanted to find u b4 chinese started. but well. no sign of u anywhere.
outside audi? no chance =X
had the chinese paper in the extension.
p1 was a mind blocker. 30 mins into the paper and then the ideas started flowing in =D
lucky meh. had another 10mins to spare when i finished. awww... so tt's like 50mins for the essay? wrote a total of 2 sides and 5 lines. yuck. tt's kinda short for meh, but well, had it done nice n swt XD
dun worry. u wont fail. it's not like you dunno a thing abt how to write.
lest it's mind block ALL the way.
p2. wat a killer.
i totally forgot which passage it came from, till i read the last part. "my mother" by "old shed". XD
yeah.. tt's the direct eng translation of tt old man's name. old shed =S
ok. the old shed part was ok, then to the nxt passage. mind block for a gd 10 mins. took a sip of water, and then back to dazing.
not long after, the blockage was cleared (XD) and the paper was a nice flow on...
passage 3. read the first para, sian alrdy. didn't wanna conti. but then still gotta do. 45mins more to go XD
mind block. yucks. it came on again. sipping water, dazing then back. in 10 mins this time... yucky. 30mins more to finish last passage plus chinese summary. tot i'll be dead. but then, flowed thru it all and 15 mins more to the end of exam.
dazing. didn't feel like checking. it's like i NEVER check meh chinese paper b4... cos i now sure pass, tho i nv study. (DONT COPY ME IN THIS, COS MOST PROB YOU GUYS CMI.)
rmb my sis told me i speak more of chinese than eng...
yeah. my chinese is more fluent bah... but eng to me is cmi, but hopefully still understandable. to u guys la.. if not i wont be here rite? XD
anyway, wanted to run todae. intervals. then the slight showers.
i dropped the thought man...
didn't wanna risk another fall. my wrist still hurts. sly asked me how i survived for my papers. then i replied "lydat lor... if not how? die ah?" then i smile at him. he oso laugh XD
anyway, dom was like sian sian.. he wanted to run.. n he gonna run. i dunno if he running rite now, cos i now at home writing this =X
nic n dom still in sch. i wonder how t is surviving. cos she slips away to talk, but i dun really c her studying.. the last time i saw, was in the lib, and she had a lil mind block. got blur face sticked onto the head =S
oh the 2 "l"s. dun ask me, but i know onli one. the other is like i dunno him anymore. like he nv ever notice me b4... bah well. not like we intro to each other b4. like strangers bah... dom oso dunno who.. XD
forget it bah... ima not gonna say who's the 2 "l"s, lest she says it's ok.
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i didn't know what i wanted before. but now?
i've got some new insight from here:
"
Kinda lose your sense of time
'Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope she knows you tried
"
-lene marlin's unforgivable sinner
i've lost my sense of time. yes. i've lost it.
the days dun matter no more too.
hidden feelings are alrdy tearing me apart. bit by bit.
snapping? abt there =S
and the last line... i no need to explain la hor? =))
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bah. here's another:
"
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
"
-backstreet boys' just want you to know
i've been fighting, and u oso noe bah.
the nights that never end? nuits cette fin jamais
hahas... it's like just my feelings inside.
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let's find another ok?
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hmmmm...
ok... here's another:
"
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for
She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me, the more I adore her
What can I do - I'd do anything for her
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ath? yes. ath within my means. but not to go away. totally.
i didn't mean to... but it jus couldn't get out...
yes, i just keep coming back for more, but i'm lost for words...
i cant muster enough to say it, but i dun have the courage to break away too.
ignorance. just makes me fall head over heels wif XD
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soarin' flyin' there's not a star that we cant reach.
oh... tt's another, but a long story behind, and the meaning behind. it's marvellous. i cant get more from it, but it's sad, but so is the being tog nice. i shldn't have been saying it here tho. more will ask, but it shld stop here. the discussions. the qns...
but then again?
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no qns asked...
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why?
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it's been done...
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dreaming of you` @
16:06
Friday, September 22, 2006
