| [ just some thoughts` ] |
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sometimes i wonder if it's ok to be putting all my thoughts here...
or shld i jus find a time for me n u to talk abt it.
but then again is it possible for u?
bah. it's dangerous.
i dun know how many poeple are reading this apart from u and dom. i seriously dun know.
there's no way i can noe anyway... since i cant put a tag counter here (or can i?)
cant stop. waiting at the foyer. waiting for something that i didn't even know what i was waiting for. i dunno. i was sober. i was clear. but i didn't know what i was waiting for!
scary?
...
maybe...
bah... back to maths paper.
just had to have mind blocks. last 30mins. totally blocked.
looking at the equations, my mind just couldn't link them up!
had to write down every single thing that came to my mind about maths on another paper. derived the Sin, Cos and Tan values for 0, 30, 45, 60.
yucks... i just couldn't link them up. wasted the last few questions.
mind block.
scary and fearful.
back to home at like 1305. expected myself to get home at like 1430. i didn't know what i was doing, or what i was supposed to do. it just couldn't link up.
silence seems to be my best friend.
listened to some song tt i listened to half a mth ago. i realised tt i was wrong. i was wrong about myself.
i just couldn't think right.
on the right path?
this man has swayed...
bah... searched for some rorsacach tests. didn't yield much results, but for sure there were some sexual things in those few slips of paper...
how naughty ehh =X
but then again. there's no basis for this test, so many others just throw it aside.
then went to look at other psychological tests.
bah... was thinking to myself if there was even a need for me to look at those...
is there something wrong up there? wrongly linked nureons?
i've got no idea till someone tells me so.
pls tell me i'm not dreaming.
my senses tells me that i'm still there. right in the middle of darkness where one tends to fall asleep and not wake up anymore. i've got no source of light. it's been gone. i wonder why too. i think of more things than myself. over my mind, my soul. it just has to stick out of everything else...
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dreaming of you` @
20:14
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
woke up a lil groggy todae.
to go to sch early. wanted to c her so badly =)
the trip to sch was still ok... heard 98.7 play kylie's "cant get you outta my head". yeah. i cant. i tried. dun blame me, dun avoid me, cos she's the one =))
bleh...
not even a glimpse.
i dunno how i'll fare on the chem at 1300 tho. quite confused wif stuff now.
i heard a joke tt had steffi's name in it =X
ok... maybe i shldn't say it here XD
anyway, 0837. sudden gush of pain.
the heart. it skipped a beat for a moment i suppose. then it hurt. it realli hurt.
bah. who's gonna care for me now? her? she doesn't want to do so. she's still seeking him. i dunno.
i seek. i dun stop. cos i know if i stop, i'll break down. i nearly broke down jus now. gg mad soon. snapping. cini saw tt. he told me to get a grip on myself for the chem later. yucks. i tried. it went down a lil.
60mins before the chem, canteen got noisy. mind block all the way. didn't wanna think much about chem jus now. missed her. bah. wishful thoughts. she's never coming back =((
anyway, cini's frens came over to talk n ask him qns. yeah. he HAS frens =)
dun look at cini n think tt this guy's a total freak. eatting, talking, actions. yeah... he's kinda mad, and it takes one to know another. m i tt another?
gimme sth from tt man =D
anyway, chem was a lil like a breeze, tho it had some commas in there though.
lucky no mindblock till 1hr into it. was rushing section c. tough n yucky... stopped at qn 2 part b. how to do the calculations? so freaking fked up.
section a then b. yeah. i did b last, why? cos got more time mah.... then referring back to section c, got one qn abt the same! lols... set the paper till lydat =/
okb announced end of chem n asked teachers to take back paper.
sians...
another bout of slow talking n keeping paper.
xpected to finish at 1600. in the end oso release at 1635. SLOW!!!
sians. miss her =XX
nxt up is maths on wed...
i cant think of myself doing maths. it's starting to get boring...
lost my goal in life?
maybe...
lost the aim of living?
maybe...
lost the thoughts?
maybe...
lost friends?
maybe...
lost my own mind?
maybe...
lost her?
i guess so =X
it wasn't meant to.
thx for the sms tho.
kinda lifted the day up a lil.
miss her =X
well, back to games again?
yeah... i guess so...
i jus realise that the promos is like a week of exams n hols...
yeah... kinda like that...
i like talking to myself...
yeah... the inner self?... like me?
yeah... i think so...
kinda soothes my mind a lil.... but then again sometimes it gets so outta hand that i cant take it anymore and i just blow up...
huh? blow up? u've never done that in front of me before...
nah... i've blown up internally so many times... i guessed u'll break down sooner or later...
yeah.... sooner?.... or later?... NO WAY! i'm you.
yeah... you're me, but i kinda get confused with my life even if i continue going on...
so? tt means you can jus throw me here and leave me to rot on my own? bring me along la!...
i oso dunno... i'm just so confused.... so confused...
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dreaming of you` @
18:06
Monday, September 25, 2006
wanted to say sth yesterday. wanted to blog too. but then again there was so much distractions for me to slp. i woke up at 1400, cos i slept at 0600in the morning? XD
...
so fun.
'nuits cette fin jamais'
yes., it's 'nuits cette fin jamais'
...
cos my nights never end...
bah. how i wish i cld throw yesterday away, cos i wasted more than half the time just staring into nothingness.
was watching tv. be it on or off. i mus've been mad.
i dunno what i've been thinking these few days.
snapping? just one side. the other's flapping in the wind.
the snapping side is me. just me.
the flapping side is oso me, but to those that i really wanna treat well, i show them the flapping side. i dun want them to worry abt me...
i know they care, but it's heartbreaking to know that they feel hurt for me.
it's not like i dun care abt those that i show the snapping side, but they have to get it, some-how-or-rather. yeah. tt's the word XD
alright... back to todae's post XD
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morn was normal, but took my sis's crumpler, cos the fox bag was quite down and out. the btm is breaking apart, and the top zipper was like flapping on it's own world =XX
wanted to find u b4 chinese started. but well. no sign of u anywhere.
outside audi? no chance =X
had the chinese paper in the extension.
p1 was a mind blocker. 30 mins into the paper and then the ideas started flowing in =D
lucky meh. had another 10mins to spare when i finished. awww... so tt's like 50mins for the essay? wrote a total of 2 sides and 5 lines. yuck. tt's kinda short for meh, but well, had it done nice n swt XD
dun worry. u wont fail. it's not like you dunno a thing abt how to write.
lest it's mind block ALL the way.
p2. wat a killer.
i totally forgot which passage it came from, till i read the last part. "my mother" by "old shed". XD
yeah.. tt's the direct eng translation of tt old man's name. old shed =S
ok. the old shed part was ok, then to the nxt passage. mind block for a gd 10 mins. took a sip of water, and then back to dazing.
not long after, the blockage was cleared (XD) and the paper was a nice flow on...
passage 3. read the first para, sian alrdy. didn't wanna conti. but then still gotta do. 45mins more to go XD
mind block. yucks. it came on again. sipping water, dazing then back. in 10 mins this time... yucky. 30mins more to finish last passage plus chinese summary. tot i'll be dead. but then, flowed thru it all and 15 mins more to the end of exam.
dazing. didn't feel like checking. it's like i NEVER check meh chinese paper b4... cos i now sure pass, tho i nv study. (DONT COPY ME IN THIS, COS MOST PROB YOU GUYS CMI.)
rmb my sis told me i speak more of chinese than eng...
yeah. my chinese is more fluent bah... but eng to me is cmi, but hopefully still understandable. to u guys la.. if not i wont be here rite? XD
anyway, wanted to run todae. intervals. then the slight showers.
i dropped the thought man...
didn't wanna risk another fall. my wrist still hurts. sly asked me how i survived for my papers. then i replied "lydat lor... if not how? die ah?" then i smile at him. he oso laugh XD
anyway, dom was like sian sian.. he wanted to run.. n he gonna run. i dunno if he running rite now, cos i now at home writing this =X
nic n dom still in sch. i wonder how t is surviving. cos she slips away to talk, but i dun really c her studying.. the last time i saw, was in the lib, and she had a lil mind block. got blur face sticked onto the head =S
oh the 2 "l"s. dun ask me, but i know onli one. the other is like i dunno him anymore. like he nv ever notice me b4... bah well. not like we intro to each other b4. like strangers bah... dom oso dunno who.. XD
forget it bah... ima not gonna say who's the 2 "l"s, lest she says it's ok.
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i didn't know what i wanted before. but now?
i've got some new insight from here:
"
Kinda lose your sense of time
'Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope she knows you tried
"
-lene marlin's unforgivable sinner
i've lost my sense of time. yes. i've lost it.
the days dun matter no more too.
hidden feelings are alrdy tearing me apart. bit by bit.
snapping? abt there =S
and the last line... i no need to explain la hor? =))
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bah. here's another:
"
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
"
-backstreet boys' just want you to know
i've been fighting, and u oso noe bah.
the nights that never end? nuits cette fin jamais
hahas... it's like just my feelings inside.
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let's find another ok?
...
...
hmmmm...
ok... here's another:
"
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for
She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me, the more I adore her
What can I do - I'd do anything for her
"
ath? yes. ath within my means. but not to go away. totally.
i didn't mean to... but it jus couldn't get out...
yes, i just keep coming back for more, but i'm lost for words...
i cant muster enough to say it, but i dun have the courage to break away too.
ignorance. just makes me fall head over heels wif XD
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soarin' flyin' there's not a star that we cant reach.
oh... tt's another, but a long story behind, and the meaning behind. it's marvellous. i cant get more from it, but it's sad, but so is the being tog nice. i shldn't have been saying it here tho. more will ask, but it shld stop here. the discussions. the qns...
but then again?
...
no qns asked...
...
why?
...
it's been done...
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dreaming of you` @
16:06
Friday, September 22, 2006
i dunno wat to say.
bio was wrecked.
yandao say paper was meant to be finished by the better pple. i couldn't. t29 couldn't. i dunno how to say. it's easy for yandao la... but we all noe lor... it's like not meant to be finished... even j oso say the only way to get an a for bio is to get 70m, just nice, at best no need to do more than the pre-requisite qns to get 70.
heck. it's tough. but no one said it was easy.
one hella sub, but u still gotta love it.
i wonder if i'll still be here nxt year.
it's so scary =X
fh was doing iz's random physics revision. wasn't that hard afterall...
just that iz's ans love to be on the positive side, esp on the graphs that he draw. taking upwards/downwards to be positive, so as long as it requires only upward thrust or freefall due to gravity. jus realise i had lost some things in physics, but still ok, concepts still strong, pushing and hard. let's wait n c for the radioactivity part. that's the tougher one =))
oh. i had sth to tell u, but i didn't c u. i didn't noe how to start. i'm afraid i'll fall apart. just remember that i'm now in a state of solidão. yes, it's solidão, nth wrong with it.
it's lonely here. it's painful on the inside...
but i'll have to take it that way.
nuits cette fin jamais - just want you to know - backstreet boys
i dunno if i'll ever stop seeking things.
dazing is just my way of looking at things in a broader perspective.
it keeps popping out. i'm being crushed silently. dom doesn't get what's on the inside, but it helps. it really does.
but you had it changed, totally.
it doesn't bode well on me to brood over it, but it's always out of the blue that it comes out, and it just stays there, not going away. i try but i can't get rid of it.
it's there to stay.
i told myself. i wanted it to go, but it didn't. you want me to work towards that, but avoiding it aint. it's just a temporial solution. its by-product will hurt even more...
brushing it aside to cope with other problems, i tend to classify myself.
i'm not here. neither am i there.
it's not like i'm everywhere.
i just wanted to be there.
but it doesn't work out that way.
always.
it's absolute.
i've never thought of it as harmful.
never once.
it was there to guide.
but the light source is gone.
forever?
i hope not.
i'll be waiting.
and waiting..
waiting...
bah. jus some release of thoughts.
it's uptight. i might just test for freefall.
i never know.
the point of breaking.
it's close.
i can feel it.
don't leave me hanging ... on such a breakable thread - my happy ending - anvil lavgine
it's not like it's tough.
it's starting to tingle.
vibrations are felt.
deep down inside, magma flows.
once it does, there's no turning back.
what's done been done.
it cannot be undone.
just like the words that we once said.
just like spilled water.
there's no turning back.
just like a cheese fondue that goes right into the mouth.
it never comes back out.
it's a one way direction thingy...
but communication's a 2 way traffic.
ever realised the expessways?
it's always 2 ways, up/down or left/right.
same with life, but never at the same time.
man was given 2 ears and a mouth.
to listen more and to speak less.
then i wonder why there are computers.
we dont even need to speak or listen.
we just read.
then again, why is there books?
i'm puzzled.
i'm worried.
worried about life.
what's life anyway?
it was in a just do it kinda thing in the past.
now? i have to fight for it.
but what's the meaning or answer to life?
i never knew, i never know, and i thought i'll never know.
you came in.
then it came back once more.
everything.
yes, everything.
if it comes in once more.
i might just snap.
all the different thoughts.
the line of difference...
it wasn't once defined...
it's smudged...
it's fuzzy...
it never was clear...
and it never will be...
for the people thinks so...
but do you?
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...
dreaming of you` @
22:59
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
todae was the start of promos.
i woke up late, 0645. all cos of yesterday's bio crash course. killer, but refreshing to the mind like spring water to boiled water (it's alrite if you dun get this one, cos this is a little deeper than wat i'll usually say...)
bah...
left home at like 0715. well, had to wait for everything in the world rite? =S
anyway, trip to sch was a disaster.
traffic jams, obstructive red lites, discerning SLOW drivers.
cant they think of others?
why must they be so discerning? we're all of the same race wat... lest it's your family problems or emergency, i got nth to say...
thought i'll miss gp or sch, since my watch registered 0735 when i only halfway through. lucky me... the latter half of the trip was a relatively smooth ride. reached sch at 0745 =D) ...
gp was the first sub to be tested.
before: i had hated gp, though AL made it better. tiff didn't like em' much. but well. AL pushed, encouraged, joked. i hope all that helped. cos todae didn't hav much feelin' tat gp would go well for me... (haven scored well in norm cts alrdy =X)
anyway, p1 seemed alrite, did qn 8, although qn 2 was circled too. didn't rmb what 2 was about, but here's 8:
to what extent do you agree that the road to peace can be achieved through war?
i hope that kinda eased my mind, cos was reading abt bush these few weeks. cos i'm lagging behind on the times mag. i didn't want to bluff myself about not reading it, so i've been reading it all day long when i'm not on here XD
anyway, it's the first time i did a essay with a template, and 20mp was quite constant, since i'd only been thinking of connecting sentences and thinking of examples... drew mahatma gandhi from qn 10 though =X (tt wasn't meant to, but pen over bullets was sth to write about...)
anyway, wrote only 2 plus one-third sides... john wrote some other qn, and wrote 4sides...
bah... break is only 10 more mins after the last dot on the page... didn't expect so much time left when you use a template. yucks. so i've been struggling through all of these simple things cos i'm obstinate about such stuffs =.=
p2. from the first line of the first passage:
loneliness
thought of myself. the pple around me. you. me again. him. you. me.
bah. this kinda topic will silence me from within. peace from society? or from within oneself? i hesitated for a moment, then took the former...
i need that kinda feeling. i've been left all alone in the crowd all along. i need you to bring me to the lite. to reality. lalalands' been nice, but issit time to wake up yet? i dont know. i paused for like 5 mins after the first para of the second passage. i though of it again. it issn't so easy to shake it all off. that kinda thing is not like water on a canine's fur. you shake it but it doesn't go off.
hit me quite well, rite to the last bit, but the questions seemed to be drawing answers from me. it seemed like they were directed at me. i know, it's tough to let go, but it aint whole with just me. i hate this.
all-one. how nice to hear, but it's just some form to cheer you up. being alone entails being whole with oneself? disgusting thought. no one is perfect, but everyone is whole as one man/woman by himself/herself.
being silent for me means thinking of many other stuff, like non-studies thoughts...
you, me, studies, friends, family, life, you
it's not like i dont want to let go, but the feeling's awful. miserable. painful.
felt empty once before, and i dont want it back!
...
toffler and murray sure had nice and bad things to say about loneliness, but do they know the real meaning of loneliness to someone that issn't rich in anything, inclusive of life? they have high thoughts that are aloft, but they do not follow that many others have stumbled and went into total darkness due to loneliness. some have already kicked the bucket. blacks, indians, malays, blondes. they've been ostracised by society, but is anybody doing anything to help them? even the laws of one's country may have even denied that right! ...
i hope rice can help to deviate the thought that blacks are still inferior to the whites. secetary is she, i hope all turns out well.
finished aq in record time (for me), approx 25/30mins...
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had another 10 more mins to the end of this paper.
thought about many things though...
everything about me, thoughts that were just flying about, unrestrained, unrestricted mindsets. i didn't want to do that. i didn't expect that kind of ending, but could we talk? ...
i never know...
(the rain started to fall. i could hear the raindrops. i fret that no one has heard that. it hit my heart down low. way lower than it was before...)
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runs at 30mins after paper.
was still raining then. took a meal and went over to grandstand to continue the quest on bio. nic abandoned the bags for a meeting wif tiff. i didn't know what they were on, didn't probe, disn't ask.
15mins into the study time, dom wanted to run. still raining la =.=
nic left, through the pac wif the jacket. dom told me. i noticed too, even if he didn't say...
dom was noisy, but raised a few questions that would've never gone through my mind.
main issue? blood
anyway, you cant really study with dom there. serious. i rather be all alone (alrite. i'm back to the loneliness passages...).
i find solitude in silence, from being alone. i thrive as such an environment, but it would've been much better with another that i would've prefered. never mind the remarks. i've never thought of them as harmful. i take comments, be it negative or positive, for compliments to my life.
with you, nothing matters.
1400, dom napped while i raced the time for bio. managed to squeeze inn replication of dna. tough nut to crack.
1500, dom awoke. rain degraded to a light drizzle. decided to go for a run.
did a few intervals, with me falling on the 4th rnd, 3rd bend. guessed i injured my wrist. cant even put a "good"-sign there. could only raise my arm so much for a sign to tell dom tt i was alrite. i was faking it. i didn't felt so. it seemed dislocated, twisted. didn't felt so after 15mins of resting. it was then tat i realli felt exhausted from running intervals. first time feeling that kinda energy being drained from me...
1545 stopped run, back to studying.
went to canteen at 1625. nic's dere, rupert's gone. dom was wondering if he could continue for tt long. hmmm.... i'm not sure too XD ...
was introdued to "wild week", w/o explaination or elaboration. dom just gave a brief description to me over msn. wild. realli wild. too wild.
too many thoughts flashing through the head, words, depicts, phrases, sounds. everything goes...
btw, thx dorlin, for the extra explanation tt you gav on the endothermic rxn of small region to larger region. it's getting more physiochemical =) (i hope tt's the rite term XD)...
i never wanted to stay away...
stop avoiding...
being silent just means dunno how to start...
it doesn't mean that i dun care...
dreaming of you` @
21:54
Monday, September 18, 2006
a lonely little boy once met a girl...
he went on to know her, and became friends with her...
he got this feeling from her that he couldn't describe...
he thought it was jus a feeling of closeness that he had derived from jus being with her...
going through his thoughts, he decided to dismiss it as "nothing much"...
as he spent more time with her, the feelings grew w/o him knowing...
he observed her...
feeling happy when she was...
and sad when she was too...
the days that she wasn't there...
it would just be boring...
as he delved into his very own thoughts...
he jus stares into nothingness...
desregarding all the people around him...
with all the thoughts going through his little mind...
the thought of her came up, one after another...
never did he expect her to have an impact on him...
everytime he saw her, he didn't know how to start...
he was dumbfolded, lost for words...
as the days passed...
the feelings grew too much to be contained...
he finally got the courage to express his thoughts...
however...
it was like a magazine of bullets being shot into him...
he was left all alone to fend for himself.
he never expected her to leave...
he never wanted her to leave...
he never wanted that kind of cold treatment...
he never wanted anything that would deprive her from happiness.
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of all the things that have happened or resulted, he couln't comprehend all of those. never did he think that he would be alone again. never did he dare think of being alone in everything that he does.
no more pain, no more misery, no more thoughts of her.
he just wants to put a stop to his feelings. he didn't want to feel hurt anymore. he didn't expect anything to occur or result. he just wanted her to be happy.
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i just realised that 0400 was my good friend...
nvm if no one know who that is, cos tt's not human...
cos it aint...
nvm all the things that occured.
i didn't mean for it to happen, you didn't mean to...
it was just a by-product of life...
all the unhappiness, all the misery...
everyone can live w/o them both in their lifes...
i dont want them to interfere, but they had...
now i'm trying to throw them away, shrugging everything away...
i may be selfish, but i dont want to regret life...
there issn't much to say. i dun know how to start...
i dun wanna say bye forever. it would've been a great regret.
...
dreaming of you` @
12:00
Saturday, September 16, 2006
it kinda hurted...
well, for now...
nothing matters anymore...
miserable...
thrown against the rocks...
tattered by water...
shattered thoughts...
nothing matters anymore...
painful...
lost in thoughts...
stoning away alone...
losing grip on life...
nothing matters anymore...
lifeless...
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lifeless kid. it's been painful, miserable but it has been so much.
he'd tried and tried, but nothing results.
everytime the thought comes up, he'll be shrivelling in torment.
issn't the key always the last in the bunch?
it's aint. not always. it's not absolute.
issn't it always the attitude that changes matters?
no it aint. solitude doesn't help too.
he's too obstinate.
too stubborn.
too lifeless.
oh. and this guy might jus be me.
priorities dismembered.
lost thoughts...
dreaming of you` @
12:37
Friday, September 15, 2006
yay!
it's up again. (msn)
damn the LCP extentions. rmb this phrase:
UNCHECK THE LCP EXTENTIONS BOX!!!
time: 0130
was stoning away jus now, and alot of thoughts went thru my mind.
it's my way of relieving stress bah.
heavy hearts . heavy thoughts . complicated matters . you . me . family . frens . sch . running . everything else
nothing less
you are more than who you are.
be yourself.
love yourself, but not zi lian kuang.
love you =D
whatever happens.
i'm always there.
priority is you, not me.
i wont ask if you dun want to.
jus wanna be dere.
dreaming of you` @
15:00
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
wth...
msn spoil
i cant login
error 81000314
i tried everything
yes, everything
...
nothing seems to work
end of the thread
isolated again
the difference?
by msn...
hai. sian. cant login to msn, can onli make out my thoughts here, say whatever i want here.
yucks. msn starting to get buggy for me.
well, at least for todae =S
btw, i've been trying to fix this thing since 2100 ... hex it man.
dreaming of you` @
23:59
Monday, September 11, 2006
i was watching "i am sam" on chn 5, and i realised sth...
life can be unfair. very unfair.
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i am sam
Sam (Sean Penn), who has the mind of a 7-year-old, watches his daughter being taken away from him by social services. He seeks the assistance of a workaholic lawyer (Michelle Pfeiffer) and inadvertently teaches her that family is more important than career.
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sam's daughter, lucy, is deemed to have a backward dad. her classmates laugh at her.
even when sam is picked up by a sex worker (ok. i didn't want to use this, but this is the most appropriate from tt's non-offensive...), the cop doesn't believe him until personnels from a mental organisation tells the police that he's mentally impaired.
the cop then pulls him away from lucy, separating them both, voiding them of interaction even though they are father and daugther, as the court deems sam to be unable to take care of lucy (which is v untrue, cos she's been raised 7yrs by sam, and is dere ath wrong wif her?
NTH! ABSOLUTELY NTH!!!
i cant believe this... he's fighting against all odds to be wif lucy.
how can life be so unfair?
just because he's mentally impaired means that he cant take care of others?
even if he has frens arnd to help him about?
he's working to support himself n lucy! what's wrong about tt? i cant believe even the court of law does this (in the show. does it show that the law realli does this despite all odds?)!
others shld learn from him and his daughter, and not despise them!
he's a optimistic man. even though he is slow, it doesn't mean tt we treat him unfairly. u treat others like hw u expect to be treated.
that's fair.
he treats others wif optimism, with a cheerful and jovial attitude, although he can be stubborn at times because his IQ (intellectual quotient) issn't as high as those that aint impaired!
he doesn't commit crimes. taking care of his own lawful daughter issn't a crime. if it's a crime, ALL the parents in the world would also be offenders.
how ironic. does tt mean tt we'll all grow up to be sinners? just because we have kids?
what difference does it make to a child when their parents love them and the love their parents?
totally nth.
nth at all!
i was totally touched when lucy said, "i onli need love". sam was touched. i nearly had my tears rolling down.
another pt made by rita was "i wake up everyday and i fail..."
does this has to happen to me too?
everyday?
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anyway, i realli got emo when watching the show. it's realli touching and all.
it will touch your hearts too, if you open up your mind.
look, see, learn, comment.
btw, GREAT SHOW! keep tt kinda standards up and i hope it can get an oscar/grammy =D
i was flipping through the newspapers of a year ago (was clearing up the stacks in my own room - they sure are v old =X)
i saw tt even a 13yr old kid can spot mistakes in the "Britannica Encycopaedia", cross referencing and field checks should be made if it's possible, so that the data that you giv is accurate!
dere were more, but i couldn't rmb all of em. tt's jus one of em tt's much more significant since tt encycopaedia is v widely used...
dreaming of you` @
23:59
Saturday, September 09, 2006
hai...
the president star charity "walk" 2006 will be held on 17th sept 2006, at sentosa.
anyone going? (ok... i noe it's jus 1 day b4 the gp paper, but anyone interested?)
anyway, yesterday nite, i dreamt tt dom was announing to everybody tt me n him were going for the "walk". i kenna shock.
i din even say i wanted to go la! =.=
but then again b4 he announced, i was talking to him abt wanting to go anot, since it's jus one day b4 the gp paper. sianz...
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will re-edit this post when i got sth more.
signing off 1st =)
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nth much todae... just another study day bah...
din noe clara so early at lib (from pq) =X
wanna help her "chope" seats nxt time?
btw, anyone wanna watch "the host" or "monster house"?
i wanna watch them, but v sian w/o pple arnd to watch =X
tag if u wanna go watch =)
btw, maybe it shld b aft the promos or sth, if not may be a lil rush...
dreaming of you` @
23:59
Friday, September 08, 2006
wanted to post sth earlier on, but i forgot what i wanted to post.
just like those pple in the past who tied strings arnd their fingers, but then forgot what each string on the finger represented...
so many needs, so many wants.
i hope i could have got thruough it all, but it hasnt.
going through my head again and again, it just pops out of the blue.
is this a crime?
i hope it's not. but if it's not, then why am i being treated like that?
it's getting to be rhetorical.
i'm just so insignificant, to the point whereby i dont even exist. in your lives.
i feel so strange
the truth is all around
doing what they love
tearing into someone else's flesh
drinking the blood
this feels so canibalistic.
is it just an unfeeling world out there waiting for me?
or is it just a premotion that i have right in the deepest solitudes that is within?
or rather a temporal feeling that may subside over the next few moments?
maybe just this moment in space where time stops?
just a feeling that can be shared, but too complex to be described?
i dont know.
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but one thing i know
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it'll always be there
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broken, tattered and torn
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the blood that has been shed
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never flows back
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dreaming of you` @
23:59
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
aww....
steve irwin, the great crocodile hunter, had his left chest (believed to be right on his courageous heart) punctured by a stingray's barb, but was unable to be rescued by an intensive care doctor and a paramedic, flown into batt reef near the low isles, about 32 nautical miles off port douglas, north queensland. it was at 1100 when it happenned...
the ic doctor mentioned that the barb itself may have caused the death, even if there is no deposition of poison. this is what he said, "it's a bit like being stabbed with a bayonet. if it stays in, you can survive, but if it's withdrawn, whipped in and out, then i don't think you can survive the bleeding."
tt's how bad a stingray's barb can get when it's targeted at you...
i'm so lost for words about his death...
there was jus this sudden shock in myself when i saw the report.
devastating and shocking...
"He died doing what he loved best."
btw, yesterday i saw that the crocs in indonesia having insufficient food, hence natives feed them sea snakes just for a living (approx 8sgd per day), but then the sea snakes population is drastically dropping.
there are some areas that crocs are in need of food, and here we have our great crocodile hunter missing in action...
he's dead.
just 44 and he's rip already...
how about his family?
his wife?
terri raines irwin
his children?
daughter, bindi sue irwin, eight
son, robert (bob) clarence irwin, three
how much more devastating can it be when the people expect to see him in the australian zoo in berwaah, queensland?
i dun know all of this.... it can never get too clear...
acknowledgements:
daredevil irwin dies doing what he loved
accidental death
steve irwin's 'profile'
dreaming of you` @
17:00
Monday, September 04, 2006
alright. this is not on the date of the zoo run, which was on 01092006. kinda long ago eh? =)
but well, yesterday was relatively wasted tho... =X
ok. back to the zoo trip.
supposed to meet at 0650, but some were late (like me) =X...
nevermind. lek went through the briefing again, this time more specifically on where we were gonna run. he mentioned the length. 20.5km. i didn't expect myself to go so far. but i broke it =)
iz oso mentioned about what we shld b doing in the zoo. he mentioned that time is not enough. i thought that 6hrs in dere was enough. more than enough actually =S
set off at 0730, expecting to reach dere by 1130, we passed thru whitley road, thompson road, macritchie reservoir (jelutong trail, hsbc trail), sicc, peirce reservoir (the bridge segregrating upper/lower peirce), some unknown trail, old
upper thomson road, mandai road, ecg, seletar viewing tower, alongside seletar reservoir (beside the ecg, there's a small pathway), mandai road (again, but now 1/2 of it), mandai lake road (and into the zoo!). that's the end of the run.
an approximate equivalant to a 20.5km run, it took about 249mins, or rather 4hrs 9mins. however, we were still 9mins later than expected... nevertheless, good job, great effort!!! =)
well, i took a few photos at the sicc route, some after the sicc, then it was all the way to the zoo signboard. =)
(i'll post it up somewhere, somehow, dun worry, but remember to check back =D)
took the lunch in kfc at the entrance of the zoo. ben & jerry was open too =X
ate fish ole meal. rushed like 5 sachets of chill? but it was nice tho XD
went into the zoo after collecting the tickets from don/lynette. tsk. tsk. tsk.
=X is dere sth wrong here? X=
ok. i walked wif dom, i learnt from dom and vice versa.
well, first was the treetops trail. false ghavial, mousedeer, macaw, golden pheasant, white-faced saki monkey, siamang.
although i onli saw the false ghavial, mousedeer, macaw, and a glimpse of the white-faced saki monkey, didn't get to c the siamang. too concealed... too secluded a resting spot =D
then next (wait... let me get the map and backtrack =X)...
ok, done. we went through the otters. dere was a sign about the binturong, but i saw no binturongs around. yucks. bluff me =S
anyway, there's a small area where u can c the otters swimming. they're playful though, carnivorous, and the only water dwelling mammals that uses tools apart from humans (they open shellfish by trashing it against a rock - wow =D).
went through the tiger trek, saw some bengal tigers (in their enclosures, but i heard that those in thailand has them in close interaction with the tourists =X), if i aint wrong...
anyway, there's only 5 kinds of tigers (from 8 since 1950 - that's an expected one, cos it's been a long time since i've been to the zoo) left on earth today, because of poaching, destruction of habitat and such human activities. humans sure are
dangerous animals =X (am i not one? ... ...)
btw, tiger's territorial range has reduced by up to 100 times (i c and think one, cos dere's also a map dere for you to c if u go - if you had noticed la! ...)
the 8 kinds are caspian tiger, javan tiger, balinese tiger, south china tiger, siberian tiger, bengal tiger, indochinese tiger, sumatran tiger. the first 3 on the list is extinct.
STOP THE POACHING!!! IT'S DESTROYING THE TIGERS!!!
we then went through the gibbon area... although i didn't c any of em swinging around, but i decided to check back later. 6hrs isn't very long =X
going further down, we came across the pygmy hippopotamus enclosure. most of them were in the water, reluctant and 'lazy' to come out, but well, they aint that closely related to horses even though they're called 'her ma' (that's more towards the english side.. the chinese one is 'he ma').
anyway, they're being hunted for their jaw denitions and meat, for chinese medicine (i suppose?), and as bushmeat. their habitat is being destroyed! HELP THEM!!!
oh, and they're herbivours =) (i cant believe i left this out tho... hehehe...)
a little further up the road, we hit the australian outback.
taipan, kangaroo, emu, carpet python, frilled lizard, boomerangs (ok, boomerangs are not animals. i repeat, boomerangs are NOT animals =)), grass tree (this isn't an animal too, but they sure look funny =X).
inland taipans are the most venemous (0.11g of their poison can kill up to 100 humans). they're found in australia,
mainly in mid-left queenstown, and on the bottom left border of northern australia (if you know where that was, cos i just checked it out on the atlas =D).
oh, there's 2 inland taipans in the zoo, relatively long and slim, but not as long as the green tree whip(do you know what that is? if not, nvm, cos it may be mentioned later in this same post)
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i din realise it was already this long... oh well, let's continue =D
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saw the hamadryas baboon. red butts, and they're picking the lices. expected.. what do they do with so much time anyway? eating and picking lice... how fun =X ...
walking across the garden pavilion close to the primate kingdom, i saw a (maybe two)golden lion tamarin(s), but it was reluctant to get outta it's "enclosure/home" what ever it was... a grey box with metal grilles...
since it didn't want to take a photo with me, i decided it was time i moved on, checking back later to c if it was willing to come out.
next up is the elephant ride! (ok i didn't take it, but it sure seems dangerous to ride atop an asian elephant and it may have hurt down dere =X)
ok... nvm, let's not go deeper into that. we'll head to the manatee area then =)
there were 2 manatees, which were accompanied by one pelican, ONE carribean sealion, as well as (over ten) penguins (i cant remember their species tho... but they're quite small in size...). dom's favourite was the one with the yellow feathers atop the skullcap. i cant rmb what that penguin was tho... (dun blame me dom. i have amnesia, rmb? XD)
oh, the manatee enclosure was opened by PM goh CT, from a gift by a governer of quintana roo, mexico.
i sense that the manatees, sealion and pelicans were quite lonely tho... not many to play with, and fiddling around with homo sapiens (just humans if you didn't know) aint that fun anymore...
i wonder how long they've been in the zoo...
so lonely, doing the same things everyday...
walking down further, the orang utans were in sight.
'orang utan' in it's native language, 'orang' = 'forest', 'utan' = 'man'.
so it means man of the forest, literally...
but then again, they really do look like humans, with 98% of genetic makeup similar to tat of humans.
after that was the reptile gardens...
4 types of reptiles, onli the first 3 types were shown...
chelonia, crocodilia, squamata, tuatara
didn't c any tuataras (guntheri and punctatus), but the snapping turtles were dere, false ghavial, alligator, aldebra giant tortoise, gila monster, komodo dragon (lizard actually, but they're quite large, so they're called "dragons"), snakes, iguana... i wonder why the zoo doesn't have any chameleons...
only 3 species of horned lizards can 'squirt blood', due to build-up of high pressure in blood vessels just beneath the eyelids.
many species of lizards can also produce offspring w/o mating (wow! i was amazed tho =D). it's called "parthenogenesis". 2 females lizards come together, and one acts as the courting male. oh, it's common in other insects and invertebraes (i wonder if that's true...)
btw, eunice was dere and she said "omg! lesbians!" ... so loud =)
the gila monster is one of the 2 lizards tt are in fact poisonous (cos they produce toxins, not because of bacteria like in komodo "dragon"). fortunately, it's poison is only used in defence =D
there's also a part on how the lizards react when they c an enemy. you might want to see that too =)
next up was the crocs (the above para was too long. i like it short =D)
3 types of crocs, the crocodiles, alligators, ghavial.
ghavial is the most aquatic of the 3, with the longest snout and a bulbous snout. btw, there's only one species of the ghavial and it lives in Burma =)
snakes. the other genera of the squamata apart from the lizards.
too many types, but let's just list some alright?
western/eastern diamondback rattlesnake, reticulated python, green tree whip (dere... i said i would mention it, right? =D), king cobra, anaconda that's all i can remember for now.
coming out of the reptile garden, i saw the leopard resting on a rock, in an enclosed enclosure of course... if not it would've been so dangerous...
btw, take a 180 degree turn on the spot and you'll find that a 50ya tree costs an approximate of 200k bucks. most of it is due to environmental reasons like producing oxygen, removing carbon dioxide, recycle water and such.
WE HAVE TO SAVE THESE SPECIES!!! (it's the trees and the animals...)
walking along the road with a light mind brought me across a horse carriage. took the chance to take one of the horse, w/o the carriage. (aww... the warden must be so sad... =X)
saw the giraffes (giraffes are under giraffidae, sharing the class with okapis)and went over the the small gazeboo between
the nyala and giraffe enclosures. hmmm... i wonder y there aint any okapis in the zoo...
anyway, i overheard a "tourist" telling his child that an ostrich's egg (in comparison to a chicken's egg) was from the
giraffe XD (LOL!!!)... i couldn't believe my ears....
not wanting to let the small child be strayed by his father's wrong teachings of a "giraffe's egg", i told them that it's an ostrich's egg =D just beside the ostrich egg specimen was the giraffe's skull. learnt that both male and female giraffes can have horns (yes, they are REAL horns), but the male can have up to 5 (wow... that's quite alot to have on the head... triceratops only had 3... oh well...). another thing is that the giraffe's name is actually from the arabic word "xirapha", and romans and greeks call it "camel-leopard"
anyway, the nyala was posing for me near the gazeboo by the fence, so i took the chance to photograph it. =D
oh... the ostrich was dere too! (total of 2 ostriches in the zoo)
just opposite the nyala enclosure was the lion's den and beside it was the zebras =)
a signboard says that the male lion bites the females' to "release an egg" after it get's humped =X
oh... so that's how love bites came about =D
the zebras were feeding in comparison to the lions' resting spots under the minute shades of the little number of trees around...
saw 2 zebras that were really close...
mother and child. wanted to take a pic of the child feeding on the mother's mammary glands, but i guessed it saw me taking out the cam and turned away to feed on the "hay".
aww.... so cute =)
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ok... sth tthat i just realised...
the map of the zoo is wrong!!!
the giraffe shld be op top of the nyala, but it's the other way around, btw, i didn't c any hunting dogs (were there any at all???)
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i'll stop here first, will finish up later... saving this as a draft =)
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back =D
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the cheetah was just further down. jus like all big cats, they like to lay down in a light slumber in the shades...
hiding just behind some trees, but sporting spotted skins, they were relatively easy to spot in the lush green "landscape" =)
btw, the cheetah enclosure hasn't changed since at least 6yrs back. (wow... how old =X)
walking an approximate of 30 steps, the gnu and the greater kudus could be seen...
(the horse carriage wasn't dere on the map as well.. it was relatively moblie, even if there was just the warden on the carriage...)
the gnu and greater kudus were resting around, both taking up different spots, but they like to be in groups.
a male nyala (if you even realised that it was different from the rest of those in the same enclosure) could be seen at the
edge of the enclosure, but it just makes one wonder why it's dere with the gnus and greader kudus but not with the female nyala...
they seem so lonely... ... ...
taking a left turn, the rhinos could be seen (were the eland there as well? i'm not sure...)
they were shunning the sun... hiding in the shades, just like the others in the zoo. i guess their natural habitats had pools of water (rather, oasises), but the zoo didn't have. too many things the zoo had left out...
THEY NEED THE WATER... THE MUDDY WATER TO COOL THEMSELVES DOWN!!!
but the zoo didn't have any (unless you're thinking of the night safari)... so sad..... =(
next up, the polar bears...
one was lying down between the "stone" henges, and the other was "mourning"...
i hope the former wasn't dead.
couldn't see the chest moving...
the ribs wasn't that visible.
i hope it survives...
nth much to see, i could feel it's unhappyness. i wonder if the others feel it too. i went away feeling remourseful for it...
the guanaco was next...
it's site was similar to that of the greater kudus and the gnus, but it was rather lonely tho... there wer only like 2/3 guanacos in that whole place. one of em was resting in the far end, the other was happily gourging on the food that was hung from a yardstick. =)
took the chance to put it down on my cam =)
the sun bear was even more lonely...
there was only one sun bear in the whole of it's "designed habitat". i guess it's gonna die from boreness, no one to play with, totally lost in it's thought...
just opposite of the lonely sun bear was the domedary/arabian camel. (the bactrian camel has 2 humps)
yes, just one. how much more lonely can they get?
they're alone inn this world, drawing intrest only in the plain food that hey eat. just plain leaf stacks.
this is how a arabian camel should be, not this...
the latter is from the zoo.. comapare the hind legs, as well as the butt (although it's not really that obvious in the former that it's more well fed - sorry SZG, but i just had to say this, even though you guys are one of the better ones...)
just down the road onto a wooden-planked walkway, i reached the healthcare & research centre. it was quite interesting to know that i saw a cast pangolin there, although there isn't any live ones from the zoo. it looked cute, but i didn't take a pic, cos it wasn't real... you can find some here
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that's an eye-opener for all those that have yet to see one... (btw, i haven seen a real pangolin too =X)
sadly, pangolins are in demand in vietnam, for pickled pangolin (i don't know if they eat this, but it's really cruel, and disturbing for one to think that pangolins are really going extinct if this goes on...)
pangolins are already diminishing in numbers and they still do this?
wth... they totally dun care about the pangolins' life n death!
walking back to the children's world animal land via the giraffe enclosure's route, we went through the orchid garden. too many orchids, over 100k species of hybrids, and some korean actor is gonna get an orchid named after him. heck. it's such a commercalised trade now. same goes for the monkeys...
btw, orchid means testicles. i didn't want to post that, but i had too. i'll forget it if i dun post it =O
went through the fragile forest.
saw some animals that i didn't even know. some of them that were identified were the butterflies (too many species, but no brooke wing butterflies - they're found in m'sia) and the mousedeer (most probably to be lesser mousedeer as it's found in southeast asia...)
reached the children's world zoo to find horse, ponies, cows, sheep, goats, pigs, naked moles, rabbits, hamsters, rabbits
a rooster was yelling dere too =)
anyway, i saw nic n tiff dere, n dom barged right into an army of ants in a line. he jumps frantically, trying to get the ants off XD
dom n tiff went over to c the children show... i felt i was relatively too old for it, so i took some time to look at the naked moles, hamsters and rabbits. nic was busy writing down notes. i didn't bring mine along =/
went over to find dom to set off for the elephants..., which were on the other "peninsula" =X
was walking along the gazeboo on the road to the garden with a view (of france styled design) when dom spotted a gecko on the base of the small coniferous tree. took it down with the cam too =)
the well dere was also sealed for some unknown reason... i guess it's dangerous for small kids bah...
walking on from the garden with a view, an english tourist asked about the real run thing tt dom was wearing.
dom kena stunned for words.
i explain, dom keep quiet =X
walked into the manatee area again, just to c the lovely but lonely manatees. they were lazing around in the water, maybe just exploring the new faces that they c almost everyday...
going just a little further, the shaw foundation amphitheatre was sitting right in front of us...
dom requinlished the times he had when he was young. i nearly cried. but a male shld not shed tears. he sheds bloods lest it's deep in the heart...
the macaws, cluckoos, flamingos, seals, pelicans. they came back, but i only know of parrots when i was still a small kid.
how time flies... ... ...
elephants enclosure reached
i found only asiatic elephants dere, no african elephants, cos hard to tame, very big. tt's what iz said abt those african elephants tho... i liked the african ones more tho... large but nice large ears that make you feel the wind when you're just beneath those, as well as the nice feeling that you get when you're close to them (when they're tamed...)
took a photo of seletar's viewing tower from this place. it wasn't perfect. the view was rather vague, with all the lush green "forest-like" ambience that was present.
trespassed into the garden pavilion again just to check on the golden lion tamarin.
it still wouldn't budge. no golden lion tamarins on cam. i only caught a glimpse of it previously during the day...
walking back via the gibbon's route, i finally saw 2 gibbons, resting at the very top of the branches (rather just a v high yardstick that was popping outta nowhere...)
lashed my cam out and took a 12x zoom just to get it down on pic. it's a little blur. 12x. how hard to get it perfect =X
i think i saw a golden pheasant, but it wasn't golden. it was blue. i thik it was pretty rare, and some tourists near it was scaring it away. rushed over the other end of the road just to get a pic of it. yes, it's blue. i'm so lucky =)
made a u-turn at the otters to find the tapirs.
malayan tapirs, or thus it says so. relatively funny body colour, white/black. description says that it helps them to blend into the surroundings at night and during the day. the video tt was shown in a small hut near the tapir's enclosure didn't help much. still quite obvious to the naked eye, and cats have like 6 times better visibility than us at night.
oh well, gd luck for those tapirs in the wild...
last one on the list was babirusa.
it's the most funny pig (yes, it's a part of suidae, that's pigs), with 2 "horns" growing out of it's snout. description says that it will kill itself if the "horns" grow too long and pierce into it's brain.
how ironic. getting killed by it's own "horns" during adulthood.
but it's smart enough to start scraping it's 2 "horns" growing from the snout against the rocks/hard surfaces that it can find to prolong it's life.
lucky chap i must say =)
by then, it was alrdy almost 1800...
dom n me started walking back, silently with many thoughts in our little minds...
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tt's the end of the zoo, but dun forget about the night safari. told you... too little time. (by iz)
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i wonder if my post will get cut short. i'm gonna save this as a txt file on my com XD
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well, we decided to get iz a ticket into the night safari. happy teachers day iz =) hope tt makes u happier, if you have the chance to c this XD (this post is too long XD the bar on the edit page is approx 5mm long, and still counting XD)
first time into the night safari. everything seems so wierd, but the ambience set in fast, and quickly. it wasn't long before dom n i were at it again, this time tailed by don n lynette, where they overtook us after the clouded leopard XD
actually, dom n i went into the forest giants trail, n dom was afraid about the animals in the dark. he wanted to walk faster, while i tried my best to admire the trees, but the small metal description boards stuck into the ground din't help. i hope they placed it somewhere nearer to the desired tree of description. it'll help alot, really =)
the lighting didn't help much, but attempts to keep up with the little light that was provided made my irises big XD
went thru many dens and areas, but didn't manage to take much photos. the auto lighting feater was a killer. all the pics had to be taken with flash to see the animals, but i couldn't. just black images captured... diu... =(
most of the animals looked rather tired, except for the spotted hyena on the way from the forests giants trail to the leopard trail. there was much more to learn. my led torch wasn't working. it didn't help much. i had to navigate my way though natural directional senses and minute lighting...
after a 3~5min walk from the forest giants trail, we reached the east lodge, were we saw the lesser bushbaby.
it was cute n seemingly docile, aided by the silent surroundings, for which there were only dom n me in the area, at least for now...
heading behind the tram station lane, the giraffe/zebra/scimitar-horned oryx could be seen. the giraffe was closest to us, and it was happily munching on the leaves on the high yardstick/pole (it was brown in colour tho...)
the giraffe seemed to be the most active here, slping only 4hrs a day, 1min each time, it seemed relatively awake for its tongue lashed in and out to grapple the leaves. =D
heading to the other side, which was marked the leopard trail, we went over to the otters' side and the clouded leopard.
the otters were even more active. foraging near the water area, some were playing in the water, and others were grooming.
the clouded leopard was well hidden from view. i guess it's the lighting tho. =(
coming out of the viewing area of the clouded loepard area, we went into the giant flying squirrel enclosure. there were
many pple. ALOT of pple to be exact... we had to squeeze through just to get a glimpse. i'm glad i didn't wear that jersey tee arnd... i seemed quite barbaric there, squeezing through all the pple...
we ended up back at the east lodge again. this time, we say the bao family, w/o don n lynette (tsk. tsk. tsk. =X oops I did it again XD). tiff was looking for nic tho =O
this time walking through the giant flying squirrel enclosure just to get to the other side, we went over to the hog badger side, to c nic n vic dere. well, just admiring the hog badger, which was in mustelidae instead of rodentia (rodentia was from dom. well, he has much more to learn XD)
the hog badger wasn't really "viewable", since i could only make out the outline of it from the pathway...
by the time we reached the tarsier, dere was a family dere which was really noisy. i hate that when i'm viewing animals! it realli scares them off. seems like my tarsier is gone... ... ...
making our way to the ranger station, we found out how the herbivours sight was, how they looked. it's relatively interesting.... one shld try that some time too =)
i also found out how thick was the rhino's hide. almost 2 fingers thick. that's realli thick. look at your fingers and c. it's wrapped all around the rhino's body... tt might be one of the reasons y rhinos dont have sweat glands on the surface of their bodies XD
going into the mangroove walk (just behind the ranger station), we saw 2 bats (chiropteras). just 2, relatively close. could hear the light squeeking sound that it was making. barely audible, and the crowd there didn't help. the warden was also present to stop anyone from touching it. "it may bite" was what he said =X
moving on to the malayan civet…
the dark surroundings was again the culprit of us giving it a miss. 5mins and no civets in sight. let's move on...
porcipines are relatively easy to spot, as the area was more well-lit than the other areas. long thin spikes (not as thin as the sewing needle though, but about as then as the pen in your hand XD)
it doesn't shoot out spikes.. it rams its spinks into the attacker, for which the spikes are detached easily, causing pain and discomfort for the attacker XD...
moving further down the trail, the slow loris was again scared away by the family (formerly at the tarsier enclosure).
so devilish. so selfish.
didn't c any owls down the road, the leopard was well hidden from view, but waiting just a while more made the spotting easier. adjustments of the eye to the dark lighting helped, and we were able to spot the leopard at the side, resting, for which it then stood up and walked towards the glass panel for us to c it much closer
how sweet of the leopard =D
the golden cat, last felidae of the leopard trail for dom n me, was not seen after a long wait, dragged by me (hehehe =S)
well, i tried my best, but it still was too well concealed in the environment...
walking along the trail towards the fishing cats trail, we spotted the striped hyena really fast since it was just resting atop a rock face at the background, with just sufficient lighting to observe the reflection of light in it's retina XD
oh, btw, it was yellowish white =)
now much closer to the fishing cat trail, we saw 2 indian wolves resting at the rock face, just as what the spotted hyenas before did. relatively tired i guess...
the greater asian rhinoceros (or so it was called), wasn't even in sight after we literally scanned the area 3 times with our eyes. the lighting wasn't as good as expected, since the more impt areas were kept unlit.
no greater asian rhino for the night... (i guessed)
dom suggested to tracking back later, and i agreed =)
next up were the marsh birds. i took a rest dere, since the run and walk was already starting to eat into the body, and recognised some species of birds, together with dom. he was checking up at the board, then looking at the birds up close, where i was resting on the bench provided, turning my head to look up n down XD
the indian gharial was close to the marsh birds and dom asked what would've happened if the marsh birds were with the gharial in the same enclosure... i thought for a while and said "oh well, then it's gl for the birds" XD
well, back-tracking to the greater asian rhinoceros enclosure, we didn't spot anything still, but we fed the mosquitoes. yucks. they're itchy! =D
well, next is the barking deer and the otters(again). it was all silent, i guess the barking deer only barks when it senses danger or is provoked...
just opposite was the leopard cat. we walked in to find 2 tourists observing the leopard cat. there was one on the branch just infront of them, but i guess they didn't realise tat until the leopard cat started to stretch. guess they didn't eat enough carrots (but dun ever egest polar bear's liver. it'll kill you!)...
up next was the binturong...
waited for 5mins too, but still nothing…
went over to see the fishing cat just opposite of the binturong enclosure...
saw it walking along the edges of the water, but just dipping it's paws into the water, no swinging of paws, no diving.
this time longer, since it was already approaching 2200 to meet up at the tram station 1 for the tram ride, and we were relatively close to tram station 1 dere...
sadly, there was still no show from the fishing cat, its skillfulness to catch a fish wasn't shown...
coming down upon the mousedeer just a few steps away...
the mousedeer was well concealed from bypassers' view and dom din c it initially. it was well hidden in it's place, just by the side of the bridge, and i had to stretch my head over a lil to look at it. nice and docile, or so it seems =)
i saw the blue retina. =D
on the opposite was the himalayan tahr. it wasn't much obvious and only it's butt was shown (from side view). i checked the route of the tram and saw that the tahr was one of the animals of the night to be seen, so we then advanced to the tram ride...
by 2155, everyone was all set for the tram ride!
wheeeeee~!
we got our tickets out for the tram ride, and me n dom was in a row, for which nic n vic then came in. nic changed lanes.
i stayed =X (ok, how's tt? =S)
by 2200, everyone was alrdy in the tram, at least for the pple tt ran...
last row was occupied by lala, deb, liz, foxy
last 2nd was me, dom, iz
last 3rd was lek, carmen, xxx (forget le.. sry manz =X)
iz took one photo from the front "cabin", for which all of us were in (except for iz.. sad =()
the tram ride started at approx 2205, and 1st animal of the nite in the tram, himalayan tahr!
bharal, markhor, mouflon, flamingo, striped hyena, indian wolf, greater asian rhino, barking deer, axis deer (allies? XD), water buffalo, golden jackal, samba deer, greater asian rhino (again), barasingha, lion, sloth bear, giraffe, zebra, scimitar-horned oryx, bat-eared fox, serval, red lechwe, cape buffalo, hippo, bongo, babirusa, bearded pig, malayan tiger, malayan tapir, red dhole, elephant, banteng, capybara, brazalian tapir, giant anteater, gaur, thamin.
himalayan tahr. high up on the rock face, look strong and resilient. lonely though. only a few, and they seem to be just looking at us on the tram...
flamingo. models of the animal world. long legs and nicely coloured plumage.
striped hyena. foraging around the roots of trees for some food. scavengers.
indian wolf. resting atop rock face, saw only 2...
greater asian rhino. finally saw it, it's relatively large, seemingly larger than the ones at the zoo. (it's nite safari here, rmb?)
barking deer. they really do bark! but they aint backing tonight...
axis deer. someone wrote allies for this tho XD
samba deer. dom mentioned sambal chill XD
greater asian rhino (again). it's "hiding" in the pond, with it's back faced to the pple on the tram
sloth bear. i forgot this, but din realli get to c it.
serval. known to jump up to 4 meters high. amazing springing power =)
bearded pig. beard around the snout and on it's tail. amazing sense of smell to dig up insects/food in the ground
malayan tapir. was alone, but not anymore after the tram driver saw one more just a few steps ahead from the first one. relatively easy to spot with keen eyesight =D
giant anteater. relatively shy, hiding behind some termite nests. cute with a squirrel-like tail, but with a long snout. eats termites with sticky tongue.
tt's all i can rmb... i hope i can go to the zoo again, then the night safari again another day...
so many things to learn, but the admission fee aint cheap. 15 w/o tram, 23 with tram. same for night safari, totalling 46 for day zoo and night safari, both with trams.
iz mentioned tt day zoo take tram c less things, nite safari take tram c more things. i agree =D
day zoo must slowly walk n find, not all the time is dere for you, but animals more obvious in the day time.
nite safari must walk n open the eyes even larger, cos the nite lighting isn't so good, so get your torches rdy, but do NOT shine at the animals.. only at your notebooks and at the description boards...
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i'm glad i saved a copy on my com, cos blogger was stuck for a while, maybe cos this post is so freakingly long. XD
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after coming out of the zoo, iz n lek talk for a while, then it was time to go.
dere was jus nic n me at the busstop at first, then dom, eunice, xavier, chiat, foxy, edwin came along.
nic. careful abt tt falling over... i dun wan u knocking the back of your head even if it's an intentional "harmless" fall, but
do rmb accidents do happen...
i had to rush home fast tt day... dad's bd =)
the time will come when you wish you had more time...
till then...
dreaming of you` @
16:03
Sunday, September 03, 2006
